What I Really Want

*Why do they always teach us that it's easy and evil to do what we want and that we need discipline to restrain ourselves? It's the hardest thing in the world--to do what we want. And it takes the greatest kind of courage. I mean, what we really want.* -Ayn Rand

I think these are things that I'd really like to happen in my life. Some are small goals, some are far-reaching, and some may sound silly, but nonetheless they are my dreams:

1. True Love. Not just making do, but really falling head over, with a person that is perfect for me. If that even exists. Until that happens, I'm fine with singledom.

2. To be a singer, and to get paid for it. Ideally, Rockstardom, but I think I would be happy just singing in a coffee shop. Honestly.

3. To live somewhere I can paint the walls whatever color I please.

4. To own a bird or two. I don't know where this desire came from, but suddenly it did.

5. An adopted girl-child. Not, like, right now. But someday, I would like to adopt.

6. More tattoos. I want so many more tattoos, enough to make my skin feel more like I belong inside it. So really, I just want to feel more comfortable in my own skin.

7. To learn more about the things I enjoy, like art, music, psychology, and the universe.

10. To own my own business. Maybe a cafe, or music venue, or bookstore. Hell, I think I'd be happy just to work at a bookstore(well, a cool one).

11. To finish writing a story and perhaps publish it. For some reason I would really, really like to write and illustrate a children's book. I'm a bit obsessed with the idea of contributing to a magic that has enthralled me my whole life. And children's literacy is a cause about which I feel strongly.


"Tread softly because you tread on my dreams." - Willam Butler Yeats